It's been awhile since I have written anything.  I forgot my password and finally reset it.  A lot of things have happened.

We're moving.  M has got a new position closer to the city (cringes) now I have to deal with traffic and people!  We're a bit nervous and scared about the change.  Housing prices are so high around that area.  I'm hoping they will provide us with a house.  We need to just remain positive and the universe will provide like she has always in the past.

My daughter is now two, almost three years old.  We found out recently that she has hearing loss that is reversible.  Now we have to go to see a specialist to fix the problem.  I hope she doesn't have to get gromets.  Then we have to go see a speech therapist so that she can catch up her development. 

Still trying to potty train her.  She has been fighting it all the way :(.

Dog is so lazy. M took him outside to relieve himself. He had to be pushed off the porch and then he only ventured as far as the car to pee. Then ran back into the house.

M's cooking spaghetti bolognese. It smells delicious.

Rain and more rain. It's been raining for over a week now, and the forecast is for another week of rain. The driveway is partly flooded. The rabbits look miserable even though the hutch is covered by a tarp. Dog looks miserable being stuck indoors for most of the day.

Managed to go out for lunch....got my hot chips, but I still want more. Tonight M is going to make me spaghetti bolognese. I'm looking forward to it.

All I ask is for a little bit of sunshine!

The trouble with being pregnant is you wake up thinking about food. Unfortunately not necessarily the things you can easily put together, or have the necessary ingredients to make. So you settle for close enough. Which if you've ever been pregnant is not nearly close enough. Half the time when you do eat, it doesn't feel right. I haven't thrown up yet, but I do get a little nauseous every time I eat. The food just seems to sit in my throat.

The strange thing (or not so strange) was when I first found out I was pregnant, I was completely off bread. But after a few weeks it was back on the menu. Then I started craving raw tomatoes and chilli which I usually avoid because of my arthritis. Of course then my arthritis came back with a vengence and I had to hobble around the house for a few days. Now no tomatoes...okay raw ones anyway.

I don't usually eat cheese because I never liked it now I'm thinking it's not so bad. Same goes for yoghurt, although it still has to be smothered in fruit of some sort.

Okay now I'm tired again...

I've officially resigned. Now I have to get my balance back. Been a bit unsteady these past few weeks. I always thought I'd have a good pregnancy. Still believe that....

It's confirmed, we're pregnant. Now I have to resign from work, because there's some concern about some of the chemicals we use in the lab. Some of the fumes are making me nauseous. I've got to tell my boss tomorrow.

We're pregnant! It's not 100% confirmed yet. Still have to go see doctor.

M is home. Yay!

What is it about pets? I can spend hours watching the rabbits do nothing.

Last night was fun, it was just me and Dog, dancing around the house, me wearing the red tutu that W had made for me. Dog freaked and ran into the hallway when I took down my dancing sword. The mood was broken when M called again. He's on holidays, and in my opinion shouldn't have to call so often. I wouldn't bother if I was him. Then again I'm not a typical female.

I don't wear make-up. My friend sent me some you tube links to make-up tutorials. You think she's trying to tell me something?

M is away on holidays, bushwalking with S, so it's just me and Dog. It's been great, he follows me everywhere. Pity I can't have the rabbits and guinea pigs in the house too.

Dog is just too cute. Every evening when we let him in the house, he drags his bed from the hallway to the lounge so that he can sit with us.

Still exhausted...sick of work, getting homesick, wedding plans stressing me out. I don't want a big wedding. Heck, if I had my own way, I would elope. I'm not even sure if I can take time off to go away aftewards but M wants a honeymoon then a trip to Ireland later in the year. So he's pressuring me to quit my job if I can't get the time off. Then he'll start resenting my unemployed state...again. Even though he promises not to. There's a big difference between intellectually accepting something and how you really feel.

Sometimes I'm tempted to just run away...

I got a $2/hr pay rise, so now I earn just above the poverty line. Oh, and I'm in charge of the lab now. I have to approve everything and if anything stuffs up it's my fault. All correspondence goes through me. I'm not sure if I'm happy or not about this arrangement. I'm not an ambitious person, I prefer to hide away in the lab doing my thing. A says that he has plans for me and that he doesn't want me doing R&D forever. He's been testing me for the past few weeks and apparently I passed with flying colours.

E resigned, but he only told everyone on his last day He's a sneaky one. So now it's really quiet in admin.

I'm exhausted. It's been one crisis after another, in production, in packaging and every day I get 4 or more projects added to my to do list. Not to mention all my new duties.

Okay, I know why I'm tired all the time. Drum roll...it's because I get too hot at night. I wrap myself in two doonas every night and wake up exhausted the next morning. Now I remember why I got rid of one of the blankets in the first place.

I don't know why I'm so tired. I almost fell asleep driving home today. The traffic jam didn't help. I was so tempted to just close my eyes.

I just found out that my friend S is pregnant. I don't know why but I'm really excited.

Since we were so pathetic yesterday, M and I decided we needed to get back into shape. So we went swimming tonight after work. It's been over two years...okay make that 6 years since I went swimming. Not a good thing to plunge right into a 50 m pool. I did manage 700 m. I was so hungry and M had had enough swimming, so we went home. My blood sugar was down and I almost fainted when we got home. Managed to shove a mandarin down my throat just in the nick of time.

Really pathetic.

Finally got to try our new bike rack. After weeks of planning, finally it stopped raining long enough for us to take the bikes out. I am so unfit, almost threw up 20 minutes into the ride. There were too many hills to negotiate for a novice like me. Of course when you go up you have to go down eventually. It was freaky, the track is full of loose rock and small rocky creek crossings. I spent most of my time off the bike. The last leg was much better. I finally supressed my fear of going down hill, long enough to make it back.

Need to get fitter. I was pathetic today.

What a week. So many stuff up at works. One after the other. Mislabelling (and consequently confusing the clients, Alan not to mention myself), batches not working for one reason or another, production problems, not being able to find anything...

Oh not to mention the crazy traffic...being stuck behind slow drivers...others who shouldn't be on the road.

Had a not so good day at work. The drive home was even worse. Usually I don't hit traffic until I hit the M6. I encountered every red light and every incompetent driver on the road. One guy in particular got me so worked up I almost gave him the finger...I settled for giving him a dirty (he had kids in the car after all). He was in the right turning lane but decided at the last second to merge in front of me, doing 20 km/h and proceeded at this speed. I had to break suddenly, so did the cars behind me. All the other lanes were busy, so no-one could overtake this guy. Then he mounted the curb somehow, still doing 20 km/h. I've got a headache just thinking about it.