It's confirmed, we're pregnant. Now I have to resign from work, because there's some concern about some of the chemicals we use in the lab. Some of the fumes are making me nauseous. I've got to tell my boss tomorrow.

We're pregnant! It's not 100% confirmed yet. Still have to go see doctor.

M is home. Yay!

What is it about pets? I can spend hours watching the rabbits do nothing.

Last night was fun, it was just me and Dog, dancing around the house, me wearing the red tutu that W had made for me. Dog freaked and ran into the hallway when I took down my dancing sword. The mood was broken when M called again. He's on holidays, and in my opinion shouldn't have to call so often. I wouldn't bother if I was him. Then again I'm not a typical female.

I don't wear make-up. My friend sent me some you tube links to make-up tutorials. You think she's trying to tell me something?

M is away on holidays, bushwalking with S, so it's just me and Dog. It's been great, he follows me everywhere. Pity I can't have the rabbits and guinea pigs in the house too.

Dog is just too cute. Every evening when we let him in the house, he drags his bed from the hallway to the lounge so that he can sit with us.

Still exhausted...sick of work, getting homesick, wedding plans stressing me out. I don't want a big wedding. Heck, if I had my own way, I would elope. I'm not even sure if I can take time off to go away aftewards but M wants a honeymoon then a trip to Ireland later in the year. So he's pressuring me to quit my job if I can't get the time off. Then he'll start resenting my unemployed state...again. Even though he promises not to. There's a big difference between intellectually accepting something and how you really feel.

Sometimes I'm tempted to just run away...

I got a $2/hr pay rise, so now I earn just above the poverty line. Oh, and I'm in charge of the lab now. I have to approve everything and if anything stuffs up it's my fault. All correspondence goes through me. I'm not sure if I'm happy or not about this arrangement. I'm not an ambitious person, I prefer to hide away in the lab doing my thing. A says that he has plans for me and that he doesn't want me doing R&D forever. He's been testing me for the past few weeks and apparently I passed with flying colours.

E resigned, but he only told everyone on his last day He's a sneaky one. So now it's really quiet in admin.

I'm exhausted. It's been one crisis after another, in production, in packaging and every day I get 4 or more projects added to my to do list. Not to mention all my new duties.

Okay, I know why I'm tired all the time. Drum roll...it's because I get too hot at night. I wrap myself in two doonas every night and wake up exhausted the next morning. Now I remember why I got rid of one of the blankets in the first place.

I don't know why I'm so tired. I almost fell asleep driving home today. The traffic jam didn't help. I was so tempted to just close my eyes.

I just found out that my friend S is pregnant. I don't know why but I'm really excited.

Since we were so pathetic yesterday, M and I decided we needed to get back into shape. So we went swimming tonight after work. It's been over two years...okay make that 6 years since I went swimming. Not a good thing to plunge right into a 50 m pool. I did manage 700 m. I was so hungry and M had had enough swimming, so we went home. My blood sugar was down and I almost fainted when we got home. Managed to shove a mandarin down my throat just in the nick of time.

Really pathetic.

Finally got to try our new bike rack. After weeks of planning, finally it stopped raining long enough for us to take the bikes out. I am so unfit, almost threw up 20 minutes into the ride. There were too many hills to negotiate for a novice like me. Of course when you go up you have to go down eventually. It was freaky, the track is full of loose rock and small rocky creek crossings. I spent most of my time off the bike. The last leg was much better. I finally supressed my fear of going down hill, long enough to make it back.

Need to get fitter. I was pathetic today.

What a week. So many stuff up at works. One after the other. Mislabelling (and consequently confusing the clients, Alan not to mention myself), batches not working for one reason or another, production problems, not being able to find anything...

Oh not to mention the crazy traffic...being stuck behind slow drivers...others who shouldn't be on the road.